I miss him. I miss talking to him until I fell asleep. I miss his voice. I miss how no matter what he always made it better. I miss him. I feel like….we’re falling apart. Like no matter what it always seems like our time is cut short. I hate that feeling. Its like every conversation we have in the back of my head I’m sort of waiting for him to say he has to go because thats how its gotten. But most of all, I miss him telling me he loved me. That no matter what it’d be me and him. I feel like I took his presence for granted and now that he’s not here….I’m sad. I mean, I know he has a life but, somewhere in it…I used to fit. We barely get any time now, and I know no one said it was going to be easy I just wish it wasn’t this hard. It’s just the little things that have changed… he doesn’t call me Love anymore, he rarely says I love you before he left, I used to have to force him to leave me, and its just….complicated. Now just to talk to him, I have to go to portal, and hope he’s on. And, even when he’s on it’s like I have to fight for his attention. Like he’d rather talk to his friends then have me there to ruin his fun. I feel like I force him to talk to me, and I don’t want to have to do that. Everyone tells me that it gets easier but, they lied. It gets harder. I feel really bad right now, for putting this here but…..I dont know. I felt like it was the only way. Every morning I wake up and the first person I think about is him. And when I go to bed, he’s on my mind then too. I sometimes wonder if he ever thinks about me the amount of time
I think about him and I doubt it. I  know I shouldn’t doubt him but I can’t help it. I remember when we used to talk all of the time and we just used to laugh because of nothing. Now it seems like we’re struggling to make conversation. I just…I just don’t like the feeling. I want the feeling of being loved, and needed, and wanted back. What happened to that? Well, I guess I’ll stop rambling now… Bye.

welll, I know I’m supposed to ask him, but I havent talked to him in forever!!! (which in my language means more than 24 hours when it comes to him) But we both  really like this song, so I said…yah know what…..I’ll let everybody guess, but heres the band “death cab for cutie”

okay, so, this blog isnt about anything really, im just super worried cause, me and him were talking and all of a sudden, he left. and im not used to it, and im worried. and i’ve decided to put aside my emotions and talk to Erin. she’s his uber pretty best friend who he feels not attraction to AT ALL. im just telling everyone this so they know. and CIAO BABES

communication, trust, and sex do NOT make the perfect relationship. actuallly, too much sex ruins a relationship. Because before anyone knows it, one person in the relatinship is comsumed with it. and thats when the relatinship starts falling apart. so, in conclusion, the three things that make up a relationship are: communication, trust, and L-O-V-E. so, to all the couples out there, (yes, including the one im ‘in’) try going maybe a week without sex. see what happens. will your relationship grow or die?